loss
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Hands
As I often do, I scroll for hours looking at pictures of my mother in my camera roll. I don’t know if it makes me miss her more or if it provides solace but I suspect it’s a bit of both. In honing in on her hands, each and every line is etched with a Continue reading
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The passing of the baton
It was 26 January 2023 at 17:25 that I unknowingly took the baton from my Mother in the seemingly endless relay race of life. I’ve heard people say and have read that with the passage of time, the intensity of grief reduces as one adapts with the loss. I humbly disagree. So far, it seems Continue reading
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Two years
In loss, it can feel like the clock has either stopped entirely or is rushing forward without consent. It can seem both a relentless force and an abstract concept, slipping away as emotions slow everything else to a standstill. Grief has a way of bending perception, making a single moment feel endless and yet barely Continue reading
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Connection to the Earth
Disclaimer: This post was drafted long ago and not published. After Eid, God deemed it to be the right time for me to visit my Mom, Dad and sister. It seemed like an eternity had passed since laying my mother to rest. Living far away from your loved ones is difficult when they are alive Continue reading
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Competitive grief
Ever since the passing of my sister in December of 2018, I didn’t know grief like I do today. And after the passing of my father and mother, each loss has brought about it’s own uniqueness with compounding impact. I have suffered loss of an only grandparent (Nani), of extended family, friends and seen friends Continue reading
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A trifecta: my Mom’s 82nd Earthly Birthday, the Summer solstice, and the longest day of the year – incoherent ramblings of my state of mind
Before the month of June started, I’ve had a horrible pit in my stomach that has been aching with the thought of my Mom’s birthday (June 21st) – her first birthday after her passing. Similar to years past, I had this strong desire to be with her on her birthday. This time in a very Continue reading
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Values to carry on
It is the eve of my return to work after bereavement leave. Islamically, three days is the mourning period observed, a time of increased devotion, receiving of visitors and condolences. However, grief and grieving have no time limit. I am trying to be compassionate with myself, having lost both my parents in a 3 month Continue reading
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Sabr (Patience) & Shukr (Contentment)
Today marks a full week since we laid my mother to rest. Still hard to believe, let alone process. But what I find amazing and beautiful is that friends that have visited her grave have shared and sent pictures to show the roses we placed on her grave remain fresh and intact. I understand that Continue reading
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Words of wisdom
If you have made it to this post / page, I would be most appreciative if you could say a prayer for my beloved mother. Thank you. Continue reading
About Me
I’m an ordinary but deeply spiritual person. I try to be devoted to the many roles in life I have been blessed with. I love my tight circle of family and friends, laughing, traveling, photography, technology, pomegranates and cats.
Jharoka 